ASHLYNN & BOSTON: assumptions

So it's been brought to my attention that If you Read my blog or look at my Facebook page and dont really know me there are A LOT of things that you could assume about me... I just want to set some sort of record straight...

Boston takes adorable pictures!... She is a doll, ...but do you know how hard it is to get those? For every ten we take we get one or two good ones, on the majority she is either pulling my hair, looking away, just spit up ect. 90% of the time I have baby spit in my hair and look like I am beyond tired.

Many people assume that I am the worlds most optimistic person.. And while I am proud of the fact that I have handled a lot of BS better than being bitter, I really am not even close to being 'Mary Sunshine. I am happy now, because I have experience extreme sadness  I can write this blog publicly because while I was pregnant I was too sad to. If I am grumpy, pissed or sad you usually can tell. I say incredibly mean things, I have verbally assaulted people, I have stayed at home listening to sad or angry music. I hold grudges, I get insanely jealous, and I have a short temper. Sometimes, with certain people, I think of the meanest possible things I could say to them...and then I actually let those words come out of my mouth..

A lot of people relate me to the girls on 'Teen Mom' and '16 and Pregnant' and although I will openly admit I love those shows and watch them every season... I am lot older than 16, I am almost done with my college, not high school , education,... Other people relate me to Emily, the single mom, from the 'Bachelorette' and once again, I do love that show, but Boston's dad is not a race car driver who died in a terrible plane accident....; us both having daughters is our only similarity.

Boston and I also don't just float around smiling at each other all the time.. One night she woke up at two and did not go back to sleep till five; screaming for three hours straight!I was going crazy and was nearly ready to call my mom and see if she would come pick her up so I could have a break. I was miserable!! I like to focus more on our good times, though. If crying or complaining isnt going to solve a problem, why do it? Nothing in this world was ever solved by tears.

And lastly, Yes, I did wear a tiny two piece swimsuit right after having Boston... not because I have awesome super model genes, or because I am super lucky, for sure not because I work out hardcore.. but because for nine months I threw up...ALL day, EVERY day..yes, I lost almost 40 pounds being pregnant... and i have since gained 11 pounds.. any mom who says their body isnt somewhat of a wreck after having a baby is completely insane...

I hope that settles a few things, in the past few days I have received a ton of emails and I really wanted to set the record somewhat more straight.. I am awkward,and strange, and say weird things,im not that strong, I literally dont know how to do pretty much anything without my parents help...but thats me