FAILURE

I pride myself in working on being an amazing mom. I take Boston on stroller walks, I dress her cute, I give her tons of cuddles, I play with her, I make sure she is happy, healthy, loved and safe. I have worked my butt off to feed and clothe her and not let people into her life that will harm her, (we are still working on this one). I teach her things and I and love watching her learn. I got her a new car seat and went and had it professionally installed to double make sure she would be safe. 

Till last night I had felt pretty confident in my 'mom abilities'...

Last night we were having dinner at my sisters house with my parents there as well. We were all eating and sitting around the table and Boston was on my lap when she got a piece of food caught in her throat. Her eyes watered and I could tell she was struggling to breath. 

I am CPR and First Aide certified (four times might I add) I literally watch movies and read books relentlessly to make sure I know what to do in certain situations, but at that moment I panicked. I held her and stood up and looked at my own mom with complete terror for my baby and just said, "I don't know what to do!"  

I am so lucky that my mom has a lot more experience than I do cause she easily got the stuck piece of food out and calmed Boston and myself down. Thank goodness for grandmas! My 'mom ability' confidence is down quite a bit now, though :( 

Has this happened to anyone before? I felt terrible

XO:
ashlynn and boston BRONSON