It felt good to publicly say that..
I have never been a big fan. I dont like all the hype that leads up to it and people feeling somewhat let down after right after. I wish it came once every four years like leap day.
I dont like the commercialization of it.
I dont like winter.
I hate snow.
I hate cold.
Christmas music makes me sad.. really have you heard a more depressing sounding tune than "I'll Be Home For Christmas" or "Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire"/
I would much rather celebrate America on a warm summer day or dress my child up and ask for Candy.
Before jumping to conclusion that I am Scrooge or the 'Anti-Christ...(funny story, I got called that last week by a very bitter person... funny now, not so much when it happened). Here is what I like..I like the time spent with my family, I like the real meaning behind Christmas, I like when I find a present to give to someone that I know they will really enjoy. I wish we could do all these things in July, without the snow and the terrible music.
Last year at Christmas I was 7 months pregnant and going 7 months of non stop throwing up. I didnt get to enjoy one candy cane or homemade piece of fudge.
Two years ago on Christmas I had got my wisdom teeth out the day before.. if you have had your wisdom teeth out you know that wouldnt make for an enjoyable Christmas.
When I was in high school I told my teacher I didnt like Christmas because my dad died on Christmas... he died on March 13...and yep, I did get in a bit of trouble for making the teacher feel so sad for me.
Most of my actual Christmas days are pretty pleasant though. On Monday night I was going over my budget. I had figured out exactly how much I could spend on my parents, my sisters family and the few friends I exchange gifts with. I had the gifts figured out as well. I was feeling very accomplished and ahead of things when all of the sudden I remembered Boston, (yes, the small baby I had been raising for 8 months slipped my mind for a bit... Im not perfect).
The budget I had for myself quickly disappeared as I discovered that I am one persons sole provider for an amazing Christmas morning... stop reading here if you are under a certain age...I get to be Santa!...
I get to read little Christmas books to someone, I get to fill a little stocking with baby treats, there are so many things...and for the first time...I think I am excited for Christmas..
On a side note.. she will be ten months and one day on December 25. What are your opinions on what to get someone that age? Do you spoil them? Do you go smaller cause they dont really understand it at all yet? Where are the best deals? If you want to help a first time mom out I would LOVE that...I want it to be the kind of Christmas that when Boston looks at pictures of it in the future she assumes it was a good one and her mom did the best she could.
xoxo:
ASHLYNN... (just me this time, no Boston, we have to keep a surprise for her)!
these are all the cousins last year at Christmas.. at the left hand bottom corner is a tiny pair of pajamas my mom and dad got for Boston.. Boston has the two best grandparents.
one of my few pictures while pregnant.. (7 months) at the Christmas Party with my group of friends.
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