(Thanks?)giving

Its almost Thanksgiving.
Personally its a strange holiday to me.
Its basically Christmas but without its own music and presents.

Last year at Thanksgiving I was almost 6 months pregnant.
I had been living with my parents for almost 3 months and was about to move into my current house.
I didn't get to enjoy any of the meal because of how sick I was.
I was miserable. 

It was however a nice day. I spent it with my King family, that's my moms maiden name; It was the last Thanksgiving that my grandpa John was here for, and I am very grateful I got to spend it with him. Towards the end of the festivities we all went around the room and shared our favorite memory of him and my grandma. Seeing how happy he was while we shared these memories is a moment I would never trade for anything, and I am so glad I didnt let my bad attitude tempt me into to leaving early that day.

This year I spend Thanksgiving with my dads side of the family, the Ogdens, (they arnt from Ogden, its their last name...I love it). I am so excited to get to bring my new best friend with me. 

This year has given me so much to be thankful for so I thought I would share some of it.

*I am Thankful for sleepless nights, messy hair, spit up all over me... if I didnt have these things I wouldnt have the wonderful person that they come from.

*I am thankful for the people that have put me down because it has made me so much more appreciative of those that have helped build me up.

*I am thankful that a few choice people chose to make a joke out of the day my baby was born because it has helped me have so much more respect for the miracle of life and how lucky I am to have experienced, it no matter what the circumstance was.

*I am thankful that I was able to hit my lowest points both physically and emotionally so I can realize how much better off I am now.

*I am thankful for prayers, even when they do not go how I expect them to be answered.

*I am thankful that I have been lied to numerous times this year, right to my face and about the very most important issues. It was taught me that my trust shouldn't be given out so easily and to not take for granted the people that dont lie.

*I am thankful that I was publicly humiliated more than I ever imagined possible because it has forced me to have the right type of confidence and strength I need for my daughter and myself to survive.

*I am thankful that for the first time in my life I had to go without so I am now able to learn to completely appreciate the things I do have. 

*I am so thankful for Boston. And that one I cant even put into words. She makes me want to be a better person. She makes me happier than I ever thought I could be.The best time I had ever had on a weekend... she is a million times better than that. She makes the loneliness and hurt I had to experience go away. I am thankful that God trusted me to raise such an amazing person.


....there are so many other things I am thankful for. Good friends, family, Cadbury Eggs and Caffeine .. the list is endless. I am so thankful for everyone that reads this and the kind messages and prayers. Boston and I love you all.

Happy Thanksgiving

XO:
Ashlynn and Boston