XO

As I stated on Thursday night my car tires got slashed.
In between the time the police officer left and my parents were on their way down to help me get new tires I turned on the TV to witness the tragic event of the shooting that took place in Connecticut. Needless to say I was left feeling even more unsafe.

This weekend was a difficult one, actually our lives currently our difficult. I am sad a lot. I am scared for my daughter a lot. I am scared for both of our futures.

Last night I decided to make my blog private due to the fact that sick people like to misconstrue my words. I have felt hopeless and sad. I still feel that way but I decided that these people can not define me.

My friend Monica really helped me this weekend when she said, "I am a betting woman and I bet you still have plenty of fight in you." I hope I do... cause it is continually getting harder. I am not crazy for being sad, I My biggest flaw concerning Boston is that I am overprotective, and ANY person that is in my place, that has been treated how we have been would be as well.

People are classless, tactless, ruthless, shameless and mean. People are hurtful and vindictive. I refuse to be bullied by these type of people. Tom Petty once sang, "In a world that keeps on pushing me around I will stand my ground and I wont back down." I will not stoop down to the level of people like this. This blog will be kept public. Because I have a beautiful daughter, that I work very hard for, and I love letting the world know how proud I AM TO BE HER MOM. I have had several women tell me that I have helped them in some way or another when they read this, this blog is for them. If I can help one person get through one thing that is good enough.

At night, every night, I can look my baby in the eyes and not be ashamed. She knows that I have always loved her, I loved her before I met her, she know that I have always been the one there for her. She knows that I love her and care for her ALWAYS not just at mere moments its convenient for me to have a photo opp with her, She knows that I protect her, she knows that I have always been loyal, she knows that at times I have been scared but I have never acted on that emotion... and that's how I sleep at night.

XO:
ashlynn&boston BRONSON

                                   This quote is what I have to use to keep me going so many days

and this is who I do everything I do for.