Document it!

If you thought I was an obsessive blogger... You have no idea all of the thoughts and things I write privately. Do you know what happened on April 18, 2009? I had a fire in my backyard with a bunch of friends, and the guy I went on a date with the night before showed up with another girl not realizing it was my house. That means nothing to me now other than a good laugh.


Since I was about 12 years old I have been an obsessive journal keeper. I can legitatmatly go through a huge empty book in a few short months. I write what had happened that day, thoughts, quotes, lyrics I love, draw pictures, my favorites for the week, feelings I feel when I am extremely sad or happy....


I have my friends write notes at occasionally...
Here is a really thoughtful one from Dayne when I was having a bad day:

and a very funny but sweet one with pictures from Sam, where he compared me to the last unicorn:

I have a sweet and funny one from Suzy, one of my best friends that I read over when I miss her:


I have rows upon rows of them at my house and when I need a pick-me-up, a good laugh or a reminder of where I have came from I pull one out to read.

 While I was pregnant with Boston I would write to her almost every night, even though I was so scared I would let her know what a blessing and miracle she was. I would tell her I couldn't wait to meet her and I imagined all the time what she would be like. I told her about how I had always pictured she was going to be a boy and how my name I had always wanted for my first boy was going to be converted into a little girls name. I never once mentioned her "father" and the extreme troubles we were having, I only told her in that book that we were both excited to meet her and she would be so loved. I wanted this to be a book that when she reads one day she will realize what her momma went through, physically, to get her here, and that she was extremely wanted.


I love re-reading this book to her... The very last page I found what must have been a note, or rather plea for myself..... I was so scared...
I am so happy I am not that scared girl anymore, if I could see this version of me from December 2011... I would smack her and tell her it doesn't turn out how she planned... but it turns out how it should.


My latest journal craze has been this documenting what I am learning from others. I am so lucky to meet such amazing people on a daily basis. I never want to forget any of them or the lessons I am lucky enough to learn from them. So, if you see me and I force you to write something in this from your favorite quote, thought, lyric or even a picture just know that you are a person that means a lot to me and I want to always be able to remember how you have helped me and Boston and changed our lives.


Blogs, Facebook, twitter and Instagram pictures are great but I love that I have all of these to remember people and the emotions I have felt at times from things that I can't, or shouldn't be so publicly vocal about; I would completely recommend it to anyone.

I once got told by a pretty smart guy, Billy Dance, "that it doesn't matter as much where you start out but more where you end up". I am so thankful I can look back on that and see how much I, and others have grown and evolved.

XO:
Ashlynn&Boston BRONSON

***we are learning time holds still for nobody.... cherish it...and remember it... DOCUMENT IT