Forgivness

I often don't take praying as serious as I ought to. I teach Boston to say her prayers at night and I try reading my scriptures on occasion. Last night I randomly opened it up and read from The Book of Mormon D&C 64:10
“I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men.”

I also looked up in the Bible Matthew 6:14-15 "For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."


So, deep breath, here it goes...

I forgive you...
I forgive you for begging, pleading and finally threatening to get an abortion.
I forgive you for wanting adoption for my Boston up until she was born.
I forgive you for missing every Dr appointment.
I forgive you for partying every night while I was sick, alone, and pregnant.
I forgive you for every lie.
I forgive you for hooking up with countless girls while I was pregnant.
I forgive you for sneaking out of the hospital to go make out with 'someone while I was in labor.
I forgive you for not coming and watching our two week old when the ambulance had to take me back for emergency surgery.
I forgive you for not paying anything till it was court ordered and garnished.
I forgive you for missing my baby's blessing.
I forgive you for telling people she wasn't yours.
I forgive you for missing so much the first year of our daughters life.
I forgive you for every tear I cried because of your actions.
I forgive you for making me feel ashamed of my pregnancy.
I forgive you for hurting my daughter in the long scheme of life.

Who am I to judge another when I walk imperfectly?

I am not perfect. I have made mistakes. I now forgive you for yours. I was taught that although there may be a million bad things about a person you should always find the ONE good one,because every person has at least one. You helped create our baby, that one good thing trumps any other.

I one day angrily looked at him and stated that I would NEVER forgive him.
I am taking that back because its not my place. I feel better forgiving. I hope one day I can feel the same about everyone.
It's a very freeing feeling to forgive.

We received the kindest most wonderful messages last night from friends and strangers and even some of tonyas friends. You will never know how much that meant to me. Thank you.

XO:
Ashlynn&Boston BRONSON

THE TRICK IS FORGIVING THE UNFORGIVABLE