Chin UP

A few things I have learned just this week....

*if people have to make things up for attention it will hurt them in the end.

*if you can handle someone verbally assaulting you let them, in the end it's them who has the problems and issues they really need to work out. I was the recipient of the meanest most hateful messages Saturday but I had to learn to keep my chin up a s just brush it off.

*imitation is the most sincere form of flattery.

*I am happy I didn't get married because I was "pregnant" when I do get married it will be for love.

*karma... It's always going to catch up to people.

*yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world, today I am wise so I want to change myself.

*dont ever underestimate someone's ability to try to make you feel guilty for their mistakes.

*sadly dysfunction is all some people know.

*I knew raising a baby alone would be hard, that was the risk I was taking when I stood up to her "dad", I just never realized that some people would go out of their way to try to make it that much harder one me.

*let people burry themselves without
handing them the shovel.

There is a bitter girl who likes to start rumors about me... She likes to tell everyone what a horrible mom I am, I am sick of Boston, that I don't care about my daughter and all I do is party... It breaks my heart that she has nothing more to do in her day but talk about me. I don't need to justify myself or what I do but I can tell you I have spent only one night away from Boston since Christmas and that was when her "dad" Had her and I decided it would be in my best interest to not stay at home and miss her all night. I went out to dinner with some friends for a birthday dinner. Next week is my birthday and that evening I will be going out with a few friends. I'm sure this bitter girl will tell everyone what a horrible mom I am for it but I have finally decided I don't care. I am not the first not the last parent to spend a few hours away from their child for a for a night out. It's sad the gossip she tries to spread when I work very hard for my baby. I work and attend school and have Boston full time as well. I am a normal mom and sometimes I get overwhelmed. If me occasionally stating my frustrations of tiredness is what you dish out I can take it. I have also heard the rumor started that I am drug addict, (I could pass any drug test with flying colors) I got pregnant on purpose (I would NEVER choose to purposely raise my baby alone and without a present father) I am a lesbian, which I have zero problems with being gay, but I am completely straight, among other mean spirited ones. I have come to the point that I expect that though. Making up things is something she does and it is becoming more apparent to people daily. You should be more careful when spitting out mean and false accusations; you will never know how hurtful that can be. I had a talk with a friend of mine who is also a single mom, she helped me to see that rumors are started by jealous people who want you to be unhappy how they are. If you have some sort of problem with me about my personal life and choices ask me before repeating the lies you have heard. It's sad that mine and my child's struggles have given attention to people who are attention seekers.

In 18 years from now I will be able to look at my baby with no remorse. I will be able to let her know what I was doing while I was pregnant with her and I will be able to say with pride what I wasn't doing. I don't ever plan on coming right out and telling her of the various mean messages sent to me from the bitter girl or family, but she will be able to figure it out. She is already so smart.

Boston and I had a super day. We caught up with some friends, I went to work, made a yummy pasta, took a long stroller walk and played with new bath time toys. Our lives our perfect... Almost. I know that 99% of you read this because you care about my daughter and myself and the other percent is just because you want some reason to lie about me some more, I have gotten tough skin and I am learning to deal with their bitterness and lies. I was told if she hates you it is because she is jealous of you, so I will keep my chin-up. We can't get enough of your kind comments! We love them so much. Thanks.

XO:
Ashlynn&Boston BRONSON

Her first "flower"

Just playin'