Insecurity

I heard once that the best way to get over something you are insecure about is to talk about it. Like most women I have a lot of things I am insecure about... Here it goes...

*I have flat feet (so does Boston)

*I have an ugly scar on my stomach from the removal of skin cancer.

*I have really fine, thin hair.

*I have the smallest top lip from getting stitches when I was really young.

*I have terrible skin. Like so bad, no matter what I wash it with.

Physically, those are my insecurities. Do I think about them often? No. I never loose sleep over any of them. Those are all so minor. My biggest insecurity is the label most people know me for... Single mom. The term "single mom" has so many meanings to people... It can be a great thing or a negative stereotype. When I attend church I am insecure as we are surrounded by happy familes, when I had Dr. Appointments when I was pregnant and would go alone I was insecure. At most times I wish I was labeled "just a mom" rather than always a "single mom".

I brought this up because I often get told from younger girls that "they want to be a mom just like me when they are a mom." I need to reiterate that I am not a rolemodel and to remember the label I am insecure about. I am a mom because I didn't make the best decisions at the time. I love my baby more than anything in the world and am so thankful for her, I have the most amazing support system I could hope for but to you young girls before you start out motherhood make sure you have someone there that is also ready to be a parent.

The point being I love being a mom, Boston and I have so much fun together every day, she makes me more happy than I ever imagined and motherhood is the best thing to have ever happened to me. Sure we take fun pictures and do such fun activities but I know it was selfish of me to bring her into this world before I was ready and able to provide her with all she deserves. I tend to make it look so fun, but being a single mom is tough work. I am thankful that because of this blog I have been able to help other soon-to-be moms in situations like my own.

 Before Boston people used words like fun, selfish, entitled, bossy, outgoing to describe me. Often now I hear, strong, optimistic, durable... Those are all descriptions I love, she has changed me; and for that I am grateful. I for the most part have had a fairly optimistic attitude about curveballs thrown at me, but the main curveball came from myself. Make sure you are ready before taking chances of becoming a parent. 

XO:

Ashlynn&Boston BRONSON