I love Boston. I love Boston so much that it's almost alarming. I love her smile, her dance moves, her cuddles, her crazy hair and the cute ways she says her words. I love her so so so much... BUT that also doesn't mean I don't occasionally get a little worn out.
Some days I hear "no" or "mine" so often. Some days I get my hair pulled too much. Some days I deal with too many tantrums... Like Friday, when she threw herself on the parking lot ground at Wal Mart, got covered in mud and started screaming "ouch.. No... ouch... Mommy!"
If I say I am at my ropes end or I tired or she is driving me nuts or (gasp) I may need a tiny bit of alone time that doesn't make me a "bad mom" nor would it you. We are moms but we are only human. Seriously, some days I want to put myself in timeout. Regardless if you are a working out of the home mom, a stay at home mom, a single mom, a married mom, a full time dad for that matter being a parent is sometimes hard... You need to find balance in your life and they occasionally means some time for you. I'm still working on the perfect balance formal...
About two weeks back on my Facebook this was my status ••I love Boston so so so much, I love her so much that when I think about it I just cry. But if I hear, "NO" or "MINE" one more time today I may pull my own hair out and save her the trouble of pulling it herself...••
If you judged me for that and said "what an unfit mom" I am... Then, please check yourself. If you're not an actual parent you have no idea and need to remove your ignorant foot from your mouth. Your opinion is irrelevant because you have no experience on the matter. If you are a parent and have never said that occasionally you are tired or need a break... I would love to meet you so I can A-meet and admire your angelic child B-realize you are lying and call your bluff or C-find out exactly what medication you must be on.
Like I said I love Boston more than I will ever be able to put in words but needing a small space of alone time doesn't make anyone a worse parent. I am lucky too because usually after her most naughty moments I get rewarded later with such sweet hugs and "I love You's"... There is no one way to be a perfect mom but a million ways to be a great one.
*on a side note no parents have personally called me a bad parent.. I actually saw a person whom I don't even know commenting on a friends status that they never leave their children and that's terrible parenting.
Totally agree with you! I have a 15-month old and you are right, sometimes at the end of a long day it's hard to have a little someone hanging on your legs crying as you try to make dinner or do laundry. You wouldn't trade it for anything but it doesn't make it any less trying! I have so much respect for single moms who can't say "your turn" when they are at their wits end! You are amazing and stronger than you know! I just found your blog yesterday and am loving reading your story.
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