Workin' on it

*I am pretty indecisive. I never know what I want, I rely on other people to help choose for me. I can't even decide what I want at restaurant for myself; I just ask the waiter what their favorite thing is and get that. 

*I have a really really hard time looking people in the eyes when I speak to them. Not because I have anything to hide but partially because I am awkward and partially because I am petty self-conscious. My friend, Rachel, told me to look at people's chin or mouth when I talk to them and it would help. Working on it...

*I have really bad anxiety. To the point where I will stop eating and I get panic attacks...bad ones. I hate it. 

*I can't budget to save my life... I am going to have to be better at it this month though because I got Boston the best birthday present! Which leads me to the fact that I can't keep suprises... It will literally be a miracle if I can wait till her birthday to give it to her.

*I am extremely sensitive. Soooo so sensitive. Every little word, energy or action I feel and it goes straight to my heart. I end up wearing my heart on my sleeve more than I should, more than I wish I did. I would be lying if I said the actions that someone not-so-subtly showcases to hurt me didn't actually hurt. I try to put up a hard exterior, try to portray I am tough and it doesn't bother me but really I feel too much and too hard. When it comes to anything involving my daughter my sensitivity chip is amplified even more.

••So those are things that I am genuinely trying to work on and I figured that maybe making them public would force me to push for them better. If you have an issue with any of these things (I hope I'm not alone in this) let me know what you do for it. Obviously, their are a plethora of other things I need to work on••I eat too much chocolate, I cuss too much, I am stubborn, I am unforgiving, I watch way too much Netflix...••

Hope your Sunday was a good one!

XO:

Ashlunn&Boston BRONSON

Thanks to big cousin, Bracken, this is Bosty's favorite face to make.