Heaven

I drove by my grandparents house today and all I wanted to do was stop and get some ice cream, eat Lemon Heads and tell her my stories for the week, I wish good things never had to change.With my grandma passing I have been thinking about death a lot lately but more so heaven. I see people in church and in the community that when you ask them about what they believe in you can just tell they believe it with all of their heart; I have never been one of those people. I wish I had more faith, I wish that I was just overflowing with knowledge that I truly believed. I grew up being taught certain things and I believe them because I think I need to, because there has to be so much more than this. I have been asking a lot of people if they believe in heaven, like really believe, and what they think it's like. In the majority of pictures that I have seen it's a lot of white gowns and floating, I just don't know if I can see my grandparents loving floating around in white for a long time. I told my mom that when I picture it I picture my grandpa drinking a Pepsi and fishing. My mom and I kept talking about that is what his body liked and not his spirit; I countered that our body is connected to our brain that is part of our spirit. Today I am just conflicted on what happens after death and I guess I probably won't ever know for a while. I think that God is amazing, I think he loves us, even with flaws, I think he wants our heaven to be what makes us happy; our family and loved ones.... Until I have my big boost of faith that I have been waiting for my whole life that's what I will keep believing. 

If you have any amazing thoughts, stories, quotes... Anything, on this topic I would love to hear.

We have had a good weekend, we will update more later this week.

XO:

Ashlynn&Boston

BRONSON