My family

If you don't know my grandparents I can understand why you would be so confused on why loosing her is so hard on me so I wanted to explain. I don't go more than a day without seeing a member of my immediate family, we are very close and I am so thankful for that. My mom is the oldest and has three younger brothers, I love all three of my uncles and their spouses so much, along with all of my cousins. I know that if I needed I could call any of them right now and they would help me with whatever. I played and got into trouble with all of my cousins growing up and still to this day talk to a lot of them constantly. There was not one thing of mine that my grandparents missed, not a school play, church talk or dance recital.  We are a close family because that is how our grandparents raised us to be, our grandpa John and grandma Darlene knew what was important. I did very little with my dads side of the family growing up and mostly just considered my grandpa and grandma King my only grandparents; with losing her I don't have grandparents anymore...an even more strange thought is that my mom and her brothers don't have any parents alive anymore. I just sort of assumed that she would live to be 110, she has always been so healthy and full of life, there are so many more things I just knew she would be around for, there are so many times I am now regretting I didn't go see her or call her. 

I went and saw my grandma again today and my mom just sent me a message saying it was getting close. Instead of crying because she wont be with me anymore I decided I wanted to share some happy memories that I have of her... she lived a long life and a great one and that's what I want to remember.

*she never forgot anybody or any occasions. even while she has been in the hospital the last few weeks she has instructed my mom where cards, presents and money was that she had picked out for people getting married, having babies and celebrating birthdays. She is the most selfless person and she would go without to make sure anyone she met could have what they needed.

*she was always dressed so nice. It might be something with her generation but even her house clothes were beautiful, you would never see her in messy sweats like I tend to be. She was always so well put together and so classy.

*she has always been the one person to call me out on things. I am going to miss her telling me, "Ashlynn, your eyes need to be brown not green because you are so full of shit." I have always teased my grandma a lot and she knew it. She always loved me even when I wasn't very lovable though.

**right before she got sick she was so full of life. She would go to the Heritage Home and the nursing home to play cards and visit, she would work out, she would go help with church activities, she went shopping with me.

**If you have ever met my grandma I am positive you would tell me something else great about her that you have a memory of... and if you wanted to message me that memory I would love it.

I know my family is really thankful for the Heritage Home in Preston for helping take such great care of her the last two weeks and to all the people who have sent messages, went and visited her and helped through this time. I know my grandpa John will be so glad to have her back. If at the end of my life I am even half the woman she is I will be so lucky. 


**The worst thing about 'the good old days' is that to you don't realize how good 'the good old days' are till those days are gone. I wish everyone could have grandparents like mine.