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Monday, March 10, 2014

Talking

I like to talk; talking has always been my thing. I love sentences, I love putting sentences together before they even are spoken, I love words, big ones and small ones. I love conversations. Tonight I went and saw my grandma, my grandma usually likes to talk too. For the first time I couldn't talk, mostly I just tried fighting back tears. It wasn't my grandma that I was used to my whole life. I'm lucky my sister was with Boston and I. I told her that I loved her and held her hand and helped her get a drink but couldn't find words like I normally can. I'm not sure she even knows I was there. I hope I showed her enough how much I love her during my life. Even writing this right now makes me cry a little bit. It was really only a few weeks ago that she was shopping with me at H&M helping me pick out clothes.

This picture was taken almost exactly two years ago. I wish good things didn't have to change.



2 comments:

  1. Oh Ashlynn! I'm so sorry! Your grandma is so great. Big hug and prayers for your family

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  2. To the person who commented (not Nikki, "anonymous" you arnt so anonymous)... I don't particularly like Boston's 'dad but I also don't hate him. What he does when he isn't around her I don't care about. I have not published the comments I receive that bash him, although I do read them. I wouldn't say that his family are my best friends or favorite people but I also have no problem with them either and from what I can tell they are nice to my daughter when they see her. If you have questions about him you may send me a private email and I can respond to you there if there is something I need to be informed about. Like I mentioned he isn't my favorite person but at one time I liked him enough to make a child with so their are obviously good qualities about him and I can tell my baby has inherited those. I don't need to or want to answer any questions about who he is with now- my reasons for my feelings are completely justified. Like I stated his parents, brother, sisters and himself don't need to be mentioned in a negative tone on here, especially not on a post about my grandma. Thanks

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