Promises

Ever since Boston was first born when we would hear bad news on the television or through any source I would hold Boston really right and promise her that mamma would never let anything bad happen to her. After hearing some really sad and devastating news the other night I did what I have done countless times and I held Boston tight and made he same promise I had to her a hundred times before. After those words came out of my mouth I realized for the first time that was a promise I wouldn't always be able to keep. Their are going to be moments during her life that are cause by her, caused by others or just crazy accidents that I won't be able to stop. If she get teased when she is in grade school I can't go to the playground and personally stop it, I can only help build her confidence while at home. If her heart gets broken I can't fix it only be there for her. I won't always be in the car with her to make sure  her seatbelt is on and even when I am with her I can't control the other drivers on the road. I won't be able to prevent every scrapped knee, flu, broken bone or sad feeling. It scares me that their will only be so much I can do to make sure nothing bad ever happens to my baby. 

When I had the emergency operation I had to have two weeks after having Boston my mom was so nervous for me and I seriously was convinced my mom was being a drama queen... Now I get it. I'm sure the majority of moms agree with me that they would rather hurt than see their child hurt. Nothing hurts your heart worse than seeing your child hurt.

The world isn't always fair, it's a scary place, it's a scary time to raise a child. Promises like what I have been making to Boston are tough... mine shouldn't be that I promise I won't ever let anything happen to her but rather that I will do everything I can to make sure it doesn't.... And if it does I will fix it the best I can. 

XO:

Ashlynn&Boston 

BRONSON

        I promise to

love you unconditionally, feed you nutritiously, protect you from harm, treat you with respect, guide you in learning from 

mistakes, laugh with you, play with you, comfort you in times of sadness, encourage you to develop your 

talents, support you in striving to achieve 

your goals, be open and honest with you, and be there for you for the rest of 

our lives.