July 6th

July 6th.... It's not Independence Day or even Pioneer Day... it probably means nothing to most people.... but to me it means so much; it marks the day my life would be forever changed. 

Exactly four years ago today I got the most un-expected, scary and wonderful surprise I would ever get. I won't sugarcoat it... their have been some hard moments, some sad moments and some overwhelming moments, but on top of that I have experienced what real love is and some of the best moments I never dreamed of. Growing up, and even while I was pregnant, I didn't picture motherhood would be something I would be doing alone but I am extremely thankful for it none the less.

I like to believe I have changed immensely from the scared and naive girl who sat alone in the bathroom trying to figure out what to do next. I like to believe motherhood has changed me in so many good ways. Not a single day goes by where I am not thankful for that little blue positive sign I saw on July 6, 2011.... I gave her life but she gave me a reason to live.

XO:
Ashlynn