Trust.

Do you know what is so great about Boston? She trust things. She trusts that in the morning, when she wakes up if she is to make some noises I will come get her. She trusts that if she is hungry I will feed her. She trusts that if she is sad I will cuddle with her and rock her. She trusts me and she doesnt really even understand what trust is.

Sadly, I have lost a lot of my trust in many people throughout the last year, people that I expected a lot from. Now if I were to stop feeding her when she was hungry and stop holding and rocking her, she would come to realize what trust was and that she didn't have it anymore.

Boston trusts me completely right now.. and that is a big responsibility. No, its not like the entire world is on my shoulders, but her entire world is. She trusts that I will take care of her and that I will do everything in my power to keep her safe. She trusts that I will do everything in my power to only let good people in her life, people who will not hurt her in any form. This is going to prove to be a long hard process but one I am going to have to take because she is worth it.

I apologize to everyone who reads this tonight. Usually, I like my posts to be more uplifting but this week has proven to be difficult. I am sad that my happy news I received last week was just a disgusting ploy. I am now going to be starting a long hard battle to keep my daughters trust in me by keeping her safe, happy and the best life possible.

XO
ashlynn

Please keep Boston and I in your prayers, we are in for a long road ahead. I am having to trust that things will work out.

PROVERBS 3;5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
⁶ In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct^[a] your paths