An Eye for an Eye

Do you know who I would have got along with amazingly? The writer of Exodus 21:24, from the Old Testament in the bible, who wrote, (whom I am assuming was Moses) "an eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth." 

I will admit what my biggest downfall is, my worst quality, and the thing that ruins me, is at times believing that if something unhappy happened to me by someone else's doings or even my own then it should have to be passed along. I cant leave certain things alone; more than anything I wish I could be someone who could always turn the other cheek. being vengeful is something I am not proud of.  I don't need to play the role of karma. Karma can do it's own job without my help.

I have had a quote that has hung in our home by Gandhi  for quite a while that reads,  "An eye for an eye would make the whole world blind."  Some days when I read this I think to myself that Gahndi was full of crap. I struggle so hard with It. If my blindness is caused by someone why isn't it fair that they be blind; too?  In high school I was in a life threatening car accident and not once did I wish the driver, who was responsible for the accident, would get hurt because I was hurt by her; your emoticons change so much after your child is in the picture I suppose, at least for me it did.

I am working on it. It is a hard process. Being a vengeful or angry person doesn't make anyone a better person. I try to move forward and not focus on the past, but the past was not that long ago, and hurt, it hurt worse than I was prepared to have anything hurt me. Sometimes you can't begin to heal because you realize their is more pain to come 

Sometimes I wonder if the easier times will outweigh the hard ones. I realize they can, if I choose to focus on the easier and happier ones.

 I have been working on my Gandhi quote this past while trying to make it more than just a phrase I read by the mirror and actually apply it to my everyday life.  He is right, if I am blind, it hurts me, but someone else being blind will never make me any less blind or make my blindness go away. Shamelessly using what I learned from the movie Mean Girls... calling someone fat wont make you any thinner or calling someone ugly won't make you any prettier... Exodus was wrong, you can't destroy someone or something, no matter how evil they are. without eventually destroying yourself, too.  Time heals all wounds, unless you pick at them.

XO:

Ashlynn&Boston BRONSON

I learned once from the Lion King... Oh, yes, the past can hurt. But we can either run from it or learn from it. 

So much easier said than done.