Sunshine

When I was pregnant I was sick... Really really sick. I had Hyperemesis gravidarum so I'm not being dramatic when I say I literally threw up 10-15 times a day. I remember one of those days when I was miserable I vowed to myself that when I was healthy I would never take it for granted and every day that I didn't throw up I would be so thankful for that. 

In December I had a stupid cold that lasted three weeks. I can't think of anything more miserable than trying to fall asleep at night when you have a stuffy nose. You're forced to breath out of your mouth and that gets dry and it's just terrible. One sleepless night I did the same thing and vowed that when I didn't have a cold and could fall asleep breathing out of my nose I would never take that for granted and would be so thankful to be feeling well.

The reason I had those two things pop into my mind is because this morning while I went out to start my car it was freezing, the sun was nowhere to be seen, it was icy, I could see my breath and my toes, like usual, were freezing. Right then I vowed to myself that as soon as Spring or Summer came I would be so thankful every second for the warmth and sun. As I thought that I fast-forwarded in my head to what my thoughts in August would be, realizing I will probably forgot my pledge to be continually thankful for the sunshine. 

There is a song called "Let her Go" by Passenger that goes like this;

"Well you only need the light when it's burning low..Only miss the sun when it starts to snow...Only know you love her when you let her go...Only know you've been high when you're feeling low...Only hate the road when you're missing home.."

I am terrible at only wanting something and being grateful for it when it's not there.. I swear I  never crave chocolate as bad as I do when there isn't any in our cupboards. 'Only missing the sun when it starts to snow...' I hope I'm not the only person who is guilty of this. 

I'm going to work on my perspective and grateful attitude, so today I am thankful for not throwing up, for a nose that isn't stuffy, and I am going to work on being thankful for the sun even when it is already shinning.

XO:

Ashlynn&Boston BRONSON