Fitting in

I have married friends, a lot of them. I feel like I don't really fit in with them though. I mean we still have things in common but just not the spouse thing. 

I have single friends, a lot of those, too. I sort of don't fit in with them either. Their weekends are filled with parties, sleeping in and whatever random activity they desire. My weekends are trips to the zoo, stroller walks and what ever random activity Boston and I desire (before bedtime). I don't understand your lingo anymore, I'm not cool, most of my conversations are with a two and a half year old and unless you talk about Daniel Tiger I'm not really sure what show you are quoting. 

I have friends with kids, a few of those. I don't fit in with most of them either. As much as I love them a part of me rolls my eye's when they talk about them and their significant other taking turns with diaper duty or waking up in the middle of the night duty.

I have always heard stupid sayings like, "why blend in when you were born to stand out".... blah blah blah... But, I just feel in this situation it would be so nice to blend in with any group. 

I feel like some people think I need to go out more. I seriously really go out only the six times a year Boston's 'dad see's her. And I am more than okay with spending all the time I can with her. After all she isn't going to be this size for long. Sometimes I take a random night off but it's pretty seldom. I feel like when I do take a night off I get accused of being a terrible, negligent mom. Sometimes, basically being the sole person responsible for another human is exhausting. On those rare times I have a night off I usually would rather take a bubble bath and fall asleep at 9:00. I wish 'happy mediums were easier to come by. 


To clarify there is a zero complaints post... Sometimes the struggle is so real... but also so worth it. I heard a saying last week that said, "4+5=9... But so does 6+3... Just because someone doesn't do things your way doesn't mean it is wrong." So, the grass isn't always greener on your side or someone else's side regardless if you are married, single, childless or a parent. Not everyone will understand my situation just like I don't understand theirs. I'm working on trying hard to see other people's situations and circumstances and not just comparing them to what I think they should be or what I am used to, just like I hope others do for me since clearly my situation isn't really 'the norm'. It's hard to fit in, not every situation is a clean cut situation... and that is okay.

XO:
Ashlynn