***This a random tangent but I met the most attractive guy in the world a few weeks ago while working in Salt Lake... he had long hair, perfect teeth, tan skin, and was wearing a man cardigan... he text me later... Just in case you were curious I continued to make this conversation more and more awkward last week)**
So, back to what I was saying... I don't post about guys or any of that because I don't bring men around my daughter unless they are someone that I plan on having stay around for quite some time. I feel like it wouldn't be fair to bring people in and out of her life and I personally think it would probably set a less than stellar example for her. This isn't saying in the least bit that I am around a lot of random people... I probably should go out more but I just much rather enjoy my baby while she is my baby. Anyways, I was at work and explaining to a coworker that I don't introduce people to Boston unless I see something special. This is where I am asking for anyone who reads this for their advice... While on this topic I told my friend at work that I am not sure I am someone who has the potential to be with one person for the rest of my life. The thought of that sounds dreadful. I have been extremely nervous to share this post in fear that people may get the wrong impression of me assuming that I cant settle down but it's completely opposite.. The fear of being committed to only one thing for my entire life scares me. I love bacon, I could have that every single day. But I also like that I know I can have fish, steak or chicken when I feel like it. I have a tendency to get bored of things easily. Now, clearly I will never be bored of Boston. I actually think I could live on an island with just her and myself and be pretty happy about it... maybe it's because she needs me or maybe it's because she is an extension of me.
At one point I was with a person and imagined it to be a forever thing. It was for a while. I have zero bad feelings towards him at all and it this point when I see him it makes sense to me completely why it didn't last because we are so incredibly different; we both changed so much. In my head people change so often that a commitment of forever seems illogical. Subsequently, I see my sisters and their spouses and my parents and they have all been together for quite some time and they still enjoy each other just as much now as they did in the beginning. Seriously, my parents LOVE spending as much time together as possibly. I watch shows like, The Bachelor, or see certain couples and it seems wonderful and they are so in love and a match made in heaven but that only lasts for a short season of their lives. In my opinion our society is making it more acceptable to find a new person for a new chapter of your life rather than fixing and evolving to make sure the person you are with fits in nicely with your new chapter. (please realize I am obviously not making this blog post off just my reality television experience). When dating someone their are only two outcomes... You either end things eventually or are together forever; to me both of those outcomes sound slightly overwhelming.
So back to my question.. Am I this way due to less than amazing experiences? Are their others that share or have shared these same views as I do? What is it about your significant other that makes it so able to commit to a forever with? Do you believe in soul mates? What are the pro's and con's of monogamy? ....Anyone who reads this... I would LOVE for you to share your opinions to me on this matter. If you want to email them or comment or whatever is easiest. If you have someone who you feel could answer some questions for me tag them or share this for them.
If this seems like a really uncharacteristic blog post for a typical "mommy-blogger" I apologize so much! This has just been an issue that has been heavy on my mind for quite a while.
XO:
just Ashlynn this time
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