When things don't go as planned

I remember being in junior high and picturing exactly what my life would be like when I 'grew up'. I am and always have been planner and had my life planned out to a T! I would attend USU (okay, at that time I really had envisions of BYU but who wants to admit that... so, for this post we will just say USU), I would graduate with a degree in Secondary Education, I would have found someone amazing to get married to by 23 and by 24 I would start my family (three kids, one, a boy, named Boston) shortly after. 

Well, I am past that age and none of the things I intended to do have been done. I know I am not the only one who has experienced plans that didn't work and fell through. Disappointments hit hard. I heard once that comparison is the thief of joy. That may be the biggest struggle I bring on myself. I see people I graduated high school with, who have accomplish what I presumed during my adolescence I would, and I get so discouraged on where I currently am at in my life rather than being proud of what I have done or how I have grown.

I don't think any girl growing up pictures motherhood and thinks to themselves that when they grow up they wan't to be a single-mom, it really isn't a goal that most people aim for when picturing parenthood. Most college freshman don't hope to spend eight years at a university, switch their major a few times, and still have no clue what they are doing. I am slowly figuring out that it is okay to change your plans, okay to come up with new expectations and just because your plan isn't met in the time frame you planned out doesn't mean that has to be unmet forever.

I am not good at 'going with the flow'. Seriously, I am probably one of the least easy going people you will ever meet so all of this has been a huge learning experience for me. If things would have gone how I thought they would have their would have been so many experience I missed out on, people I would have never met, lessons I would not have learned and possibly, maybe even my sweet daughter would not be who she is.  I ran across a quote on Instagram that said, "My entire life can be described in one sentence: It didn't go as planned, and that is okay."

XO:
Ashlynn&Boston
BRONSON