Boston's 'dad moved a few times since she was born and hasn't lived in the valley since she was eleven months old. For now he has been working further away but spends time closer to where we live so she will be seeing him a little bit more often. For the past few years she has only left me to be with him six times a year so this adjustment will hopefully be okay for her and for me. Being a mom is a scary thing because it is almost like your heart is outside of your body and when your child isn't with you it feels like you are missing your heart & it hurts. I think that since I have been her only parent who has raised her so far we have a really tight bond, maybe an overbearing type of bond but it really is hard on me when she is not right by my side.
I still retain full legal and physical custody, which I actually hate saying it like that because it sounds like she is an object I own not a child I have been raising. I am really only even writing it because in the past we have had an issue where a business wanted to post a picture of my daughter and although I would like to think that the company meant no harm I wasn't okay with it and they will still need my authorization to do so. Also, with that we were able to place a few important restrictions on what another person could post on social media of Boston....to keep things from being misleading or disrespectful, as they have been, but to also helpfully help keep some sort of peace.
Besides that most things are still the same... Someone asked me if her last name was still, "Bronson" and the answer is yes. Their are some finance matters that have changed but that issue is more of a private matter all that matters is that what is best for Boston will be happening and we are pleased. Besides all of the legal issues all I have really hoped is that my daughter can be surrounded by love whether it is from her mom, 'dad, cousins, grandparents, aunts, uncles and friends. I love Boston more than I ever imagined my heart being able to love someone and although I don't really get along great with her 'dad, Mike, I want her to have a healthy relationship with him and form her own opinions of him. I want her to have a good time and be happy when she isn't with me like any mom would want. The past three years have been great for Boston... she has been with family and learned and changed so much. For me, although there have been some really good times, they have been a hard three years. Boston's 'dad started seeing someone (I'm not even sure if that is the correct wording for what was happening) when I was seven months pregnant with her and at the time it really hurt, just like it would hurt any woman.
I am glad that part of life is behind me and I am hoping that with going forward things can go smoother.
Thank you for all of the kind advice and encouraging words I received while going thru that the past few months. It's so humbling to know that so many people care about me and my daughter.
XO:
Ashlynn&Boston
BRONSON
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