Happy...

I am taking a break till next week cause things have been crazy... I started this blog over a year and a half ago when I found out I was expecting Boston. This blog was kept private till she was about five months old. I started writing because I was sick, I was sad, I was only getting support from my family and a few friends. I had been told to abort, adopt and everything else. I wanted this to be something I could use to remember that but so that also Boston would know that her mom and her moms family always wanted her. I am not going to engage in an 'internet war' with someone who has no respect or morals. I have earned the title of being a mom and to someone who isnt a mom this is obviously a big game.

I decided to clear a few things up.... Am I a bitter upset woman? NO. I was (and for good reason) upset by how I was treated while I was pregnant and how my daughters birth was treated, but that was a long time ago. I try not to dwell too often on that. Boston will ask one day what happened and people will have to own up to their actions. I know Bost really well and she is a smart girl so far, she will make good decisions on how to make of what people have done.

Do I get along with Bostons "Father"? Not particularly... Obviously at one point I did, and I am sure there are redeeming qualities about him, his teeth are nice as well, (yes, I'm attempting something nice). I only pray that since he is now choosing to be in her life that he treats her well. There are a few short hours a week that she has to be away from me and it does break my heart that she cries every time she leaves.

Do Boston and I have a perfect life where we just smile and stare at each other and cuddle and hug? I wish... we have our moments just as any other mom and baby would have.I am just a normal mom. Of course I wish that at times there was another parent here right now to help with things, I would love to have a bath in peace or take one break from changing a diaper. I am used to it though and I cant even imagine it any other way.

Do I enjoy someone trying to pretend to be Bostons mom? NOPE. But again, BB is smart. She knows her who mom is and she knows who to call mom.  Do I like this other woman, I actually dont even know her, except what other people tell me about her, which I pray the majority of it isn't true... I have countless reasons to not like her, but not liking someone is a waste of energy.

We love prayers we love kind messages we love people telling us how pretty Boston is...we dont need pity, though. We do just fine. We are a very happy family. I have had to go without a few things but I have been blessed in so many other ways. We have learned to take most things with a grain of salt. If people want to keep making themselves look foolish we welcome it, but we are on our own pursuit of happiness. I hope by the time I am 40 I have wrinkles around my eye's from smiling so much. So for the time being I will continue to love daily on my baby, I will continue to enjoy my job, I will date and find someone to be a stable father figure, I will hang out with my family on Sundays and I will be happy that I was trusted to be Bostons mom. Happiness is a choice, it takes effort every day, it has to be something you do for yourself and not let others dictate for you... and we choose to be happy.

XO:
A&B BRONSON
                             This is how photogenic we were today. Pictures wernt fun.