Trust

Have you ever had an interview and they asked you what your worst quality was? I feel like that is a pretty standard job interview question.. And, usually the responses are "I'm too hard of a worker" or "I am a perfectionist"...ya know things that aren't really that bad of quality's. I'm pretty confident in sharing a few of my actual terrible qualities:

•I'm usually always late.

•I drink too much soda.

•I'm an over-analyzer.

•I am pretty high strung.

•I am too sensitive.

•I bite my nails.

•I am bossy.

That's just the very tip of the iceberg... I could go on and one because I have a lot of them (I am sure if you ask anyone who knows me they could name ten more off the top of their head). But, I think my biggest problem is that I don't trust a lot of things, and that is one I really wish I could improve on. We could be standing in a pasture of green grass and you could tell me that the grass is green and I would still probably question you. I would still need it to be proven to be that it's actually green. 

I guess this a bad quality that I wasn't born with but rather one that I have grown into through experiences. The amount of people I trust is few and it's actions not words that I actually believe. Sometimes I wish I could be like Boston. She trusts me. She has yet to be let down so she hasn't had to build up walls. I hope she can stay that way for a long time.

I'm probably just rambling but I stumbled across this quote today and it made me think of all of this:

Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.

I thought of all things I could read this was set out specially. Do not get upset with people or situations; both are powerless without your reaction. I want to be that girl again one day that saw the good in people and didn't always assume that alliterative motives were active. It's a slow and long process but I am slowly learning to trust.

XO:

Ashlynn&Boston

BRONSON

I had a long busy weekend working so waking up yesterday morning to this sweet face was exactly what I needed.