Boston's 'dad was supposed to take her Wednesday thru Sunday for Fall Break. I drove to the spot to meet him and he just didn't show up. I said some rude things asking if he was lazy or just stupid... He took her Friday night. It was fine, I convinced her if she went we would go play with grandma tomorrow. This morning he text me telling me her would bring her down to my house at seven pm and I double checked the time and agreed on that. I went on a hike with my friend, Brian, to pass the time and obviously didn't have service but when I did get service I had a plethora of emails, texts, and phone calls from him wondering where I was because he was mad at me because he wanted to drop her off at four pm not like seven like I was expecting. He told me his children were having issues and they left early... my exact words were, "do you know who I give a shit about? not your kids, I care about Boston". I was mad more than mad but angry... for the past year a show has been put on what a good dad he is to them and as a mom I feel like my child deserves the same type of dad. I talked to my mom about it and she helped me realize he will never be the type of dad I want him to be to my daughter... he gave up his Wednesday visits with her, he doesn't respond to her call or pictures I send of her... I just need to accept that that is how it is and as much as my mamma heart hurts over it I know that some day I will be with a man that treat her like she deserves to be treated. I threw some low blows because honestly I am more than fed up... that's what I do when I am angry... putting down his other kids, mostly because it upsets me that my daughter doesn't get the same attention. I called her an incompetent mom... she has said far worse about me so it is something I don't feel much remorse about. It is something that I know is going to be hard on her growing up and it breaks my heart. The woman slept with the father of my child when I was pregnant so her taking the moral high road is getting pretty tiresome. I wish she didn't make mine and his arguments so public... One girl, whom I don't even know, when on to mock our family pictures saying I look like a, "slutty teacher" whatever that would mean... She is the one who text me aweful things a a while ago... This picture.
Anyways, the main point is at this point he is his wife's puppet... he does what she says and I along with COUNTLESS others can see it... which is sad because at the end of the day it isn't about myself, or him or her, it is about mine and his daughter. Be nice to my daughter, don't make her cry, don't make her upset and don't pretend that you have had any part in raising her. Really, that's all I ask. Oh, and keep my name out of your mouth. The fights me and him suck... at first I used to vent about theme constantly on here but I have eased up so much. The fights are sometimes are sometimes petty but they are between Boston's two parents, I wish more than anything the third party would stop making them so open when it isn't her laundry to air. I think she thinks she won.... and good for her... My prize is my baby.
sidenote... thank you for all of the super positive and nice messages being sent. I wish I could put into the exact words how much they truly mean to me.
ashlynn
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